ikin’s life

hari ni tarikh tutup for my employment offer letter for ernst and Young (EY), CIMB and scholarship for my master and phd.. and, ikin dah mengarang letter of decline tapi tak send lagi.. entahlah, this past few days rs cam tak de smgt nak buat keje jer.. tadi baru jer submit 2 courseworks.. rasa mcm regret jer amik one of the module tu.. sebab, ikin x fhm sgt ttg theory dia.. maybe, kalau ikin cuba baca and buat research ttg that topic, i could appreciate the module  more than before.. the problem is, i have another  group coursework to do.. x sukeeeenyeeeee.. tapi, bila kerja kumpulan ni, makes me appreciate more to analyse the people’s thinking.. and, sometimes tu, ikin pernah jumpa org yg mmg tak nak terima pdpt org lain.. mmg mula2 tu ikin bersabar.. lama2 tu, rasa cam dah tak larat..

sometimeskan, i feel, yg ramai org tak appreciate ikin when ikin tolong dia.. and, buat ikin rs sedih.. bygkanlah, ikin ni jenis suka share new information dgn org yg berkaitan dgn studies or benda2 yg boleh bg advantange.. eventhough, ikin tau ada risknya.. sebab mungkin because of the information ikin share, akn buat ikin in a competitive situation.. tapi, yg sedihnya, org tu tak thankful dan tak appreciate ikin.. nak tegur ikin pun tak.. sebaik mana kita buat kat org, tak semua org akn buat baik kat kita.. sebab masa ikin kat mrsm dulu, cikgu selalu ckp, kita kena kongsi segala ilmu yg kita ada dgn org lain, and Allah akn limpahkan rezeki kat kita nanti as the reward.. yup, ikin agree with that statement.. eventhough org tu tak thankful kat ikin, tak appreciate ikin as a friend, and not willing to share anything with me tapi alhamdulilah, Allah bg ikin rezeki yg lain.. apa  salah ikin yer? kenapa org tu mesti rs envy and iri hati.. susahkan kalau semua manusia cam ni.. time susah baru nak dtg jumpa ikin.. but, ikin will always try my very best to help eventhough dlm hati tu pelik..biarla, dia nak ckp ikin ni apa kat best friends dia.. for me, don’t judge anyone from the gossip that you hear.. boleh jadi salah..mcm la ikin ni hebat sgt yg dia nak envy.. belajar takat moderate level jer, tak lebih and tak kurang.. biasa2 jer.. tapi, jgnlah bgtau org lain benda2 yg tak betul ttg ikin.. it makes me feel sad.. rs nak nangis..salah ker kalau dia share any info and good news with me.. and, ikin rs mcm ikin ni terhegeh2 jer kawan ngan dia..  kenapa org sanggup tikam dr belakang eventhough kita yg selalu dgn dia masa susah and senang.. bila dah senang, tak reti nak appreciate the true meaning of friendship.. and since that, ikin rs ikin lebih berhati2 bila buat kawan.. and, ikin tend utk jadi biasa and don’t want to show the real characteristics of me.. betullah cakap mama.. kat dunia ni, susah nak jumpa org yg baik2..

takperlah, mudah2an ada hikmahnya yg Allah nak bg.. doa2kanla ikin jumpa dgn org yg baik2 time ikin kerja nanti.. yg boleh motivate ikin buat kerja mcm kawan2 ikin kat sini as well as the friend that willing to be with you dlm masa susah dan senang.. kenapala ikin jumpa diorang ms ikin 2nd yr and final yr.. kalau jumpa diorang awl2 kan best? maybe time tu ikin ni pemalu sikit.. gonna miss my study group very much..