ikin’s life

I was quite surprised when I received a special delivery mail this morning.. It’s a employment offer letter from CIMB .. CIMB stands for Commerce International Merchant Bankers Berhad.. Keje as a banker.. the salary that their offered to me is quite competitive and slightly more than what did the pricewaterhousecoopers and Ernst and Young offered to me.. padahal time interview tu, I am not very focussed.. sebab CIMB is my fifth interview after MISC,  PwC, EY and Delloitte.. I am so tired during that time and rasa mcm tak der tenaga jer nak menjawab.. I’ve meet the interviewer before the interview when I was waiting for my turn for PWC’s interview.. and, time tu, tak terfikir pun nak pergi CIMB interview.. but, the person gave her card to me and asked me to think about it.. Since Ikin dah pasrah mula2 masa interview PwC, ikin pun rs ikin kena start applying to other companies as well.. then, masa interview CIMB, I am not fully prepared as I was in PWC’s interview.. And,masa time tu, I’ve lost my voice and I have a bad running nose..Some of the ques that she asked me, "how many siblings that I have?" and " What is my father’s working and what kind of business?".. and, "why don’t you just work with your father?".. ikin pun jawabla, "coz my father have rejected my employment application".. guess what? org tu gelak sakan kat ikin.. lama jugak la.. adalah dekat 6 harakat.. seriesly, ikin time tu fikir, "ikin tgh buat joke ker? ikin rs ikin jawab dgn benda yg betul.. "tak sampai 10 minit, the interview ended.. dlm hati ikin, sure tak dptnya keje tu.. sebab org sebelum ikin kena interview about 40 min.. tak sangka pulak dia bg offer letter tu?

but, i am still with my decision nak keje kat PwC.. BUT, ada masalah sket.. coz, of my previous medical history of cancer.. herm, takperla. kalau diorang x nak bg ikin keje psl my previous sakit, ikin rs its totally unfair to my life.. if ikin still ada sakit tu, sure doktor x bg ikin further study kat sini and masa boarding school dulu.. my sakit is my past.. ikin x suka org kaitkan kebolehan ikin dgn sakit ikin.. sebab masa ikin sekolah dulu, some of teachers don’t allowed me to do sama macam as other student buat.. tak fair lah kan? dalam hati tu, nak main jugak mcm org biasa, tapi, maybe teachers takut complication, so, tak bglah ikin buat mcm2..

ikin ari tu ada tgk movie mr bean’s holiday .. best la.. ikin dapat student price and buy 1 get 1 free ticket.. tgk ngan my younger brother.. ada satu part in the movie tu, sebijik mcm my behaviour.. especially kalau mengantuk..ingat lagi, ikin selalu mengantuk time kemahiran hidup.. kalau kat mrsm, bila pendidikan islam.. ustaz tu ckp perlahan sangat la.. pastu, ikin akn suruh kawan ikin, cubit2 ikin bila ikin mengantuk.. pastu, siap suruh, cubit kuat lagi sampai tak nak bg ikin mengantuk.. and, ikin rs , ikin lebih kurang mr bean jer.. kuat sgt careless.. ada jer yg hilang.. student card, dompet, mobile phone, pendrive.. just name it.. alhamdulilah, semuanya dpt jumpa bila ada org contact ikin and pulangkan balik brg ikin.. maybe sebab ikin always return back the item org lain that Ive found kat lost and found reception..

I’ve spent my holidays doing my coursework and tgk dvd yg mama htr dulu.. I love to watched dvd ‘CINTA’.. seronok sgt!! not because just the actor, but the plot of the story.. its like the reality of life now.. I like to watched the old couple in the story.. sebab dia sayang ‘cikgu ilyas’ yg kena Alzheimer the way he is.. not bcoz of other things.. and when shidi as Harris.. such a wonderful father towards his daughter and his ex-wife.. ikin rs rugi jer his ex wife tinggalkan dia.. rs pity to him! sebab dia ckp" loves means letting go..as long that the person is happy and contented with her life".. herm, terjiwangla pulak.. but, Ive love to watch this dvd over and over again.. My favourite actor, Pierre Andre pun berlakon jugak.. Love the way he acts.. and his soft voice dlm cite tu.. ( x taula kalau kat luar filem mcm mana kan?) suka tgk dia senyum.. =) and, lagi satu quote kin suka dlm cerita tu" when there is a will, there will always a way"… and, frm that story, I’ve learnt something.. "kita akn rasa puas hati dpt bersama dgn org yg kita sayang walaupun susah mcm mana pun, berbanding dgn hidup dgn org yg kita tak sayang eventhough with easy life.. ".. and "org yg paling kita sayang la, itula yg paling kita susah kita sayang"..betul jugak kan? its hard to show that ikin sayangkan my younger brothers.. serious.. bila kita tegur adik2 lelaki kita, dia akn ingat kita tak sayang kat dia.. susahkan?

pastu, ikin tgk cerita the night at museum.. best sgt!! at first i thought that it is quite boring .. tapi, lama2 best la pulak..
percaya tak setiap ada di dunia ni ada hikmahnya?? Allah tidak mencipta sesuatu itu dengan sia-sia. Semua ada sebabnya.
Semua ada gunanya. Semua ada hikmahnya. Terpulang kepada manusia untuk
mencari sebabnya, gunanya dan hikmahnya itu. Allah hamparkan bumi ini
dan mencipta segala sesuatu di dalamnya bukan semata-mata untuk manusia
hidup dan berkembang biak di atasnya serta menggunakan segala khazanah
kekayaan-Nya. Yang lebih penting, ia bertujuan supaya manusia dapat
melihat secara zahir akan alam ciptaan Allah ini. Ia adalah bukti besar
kepada manusia tentang wujudnya Allah. lah sebenarnya adalah dalil bagi
mereka tentang adanya Allah.
and, ikin rs ada benarnya this statement" Allah don’t always give what we want, instead he gives what we need"..
ikin rs sometimes ikin missed sgt kawan2 kin kat Msia.. Miss all the funny jokes.. wonder how they will reacted when they see me again.. Feel so sad when they said that diorang takut yg ikin berubah bila balik belajar dr uk.. Insyallah,I am the same ikin as diorang kenal.. kalau berubah pun, dr segi pemikiran.. dah makin matured (kononnya.. hehehheh..) dedicated this song to my family and friends kat msia.. tapi, ada kawan ikin ckp, ikin still the same old"ikin" suka buat lawak, kuat mengusik.. but, dgn org yg ikin kenal rapat and boleh buat "geng".. bukannya ikin memilih utk berkawan, ikin berkawan dgn semua org, but tend to be close with one that have the same interest and can get along with you.. and willing to give and take.. selama 21 years old ni, I’ve realize something bout myself, tak boleh rapat dgn org yg very such a loud person, and suka paksa ikin, and ikin kena ikut ckp dia jer, and org yg not willing to hear people opinion, plus eksyen terlebih i.e. bangga dgn apa yg dia ada.. . ikin tend to be senyap bila ikin jumpa org2 yg mcm ni.. sometimes, org2 always think that I am very quiet and serious.. but, yg seconfirmnya, I am very cheerful  person, suka kacau org, suka cubit2 org, suka keluar makan dgn kawan2, happy with what I have now.. and like to makes people happy.. ikin suka berkawan dgn org yg sederhana mcm ikin, coz I will then be thankful with apa yg ikin ada skrg.. just nak bgtau kawan2 ikin yg…

walau setinggi mana kan daku mendaki,
ku tetap diriku yg  kau pernah kenali dulu
walau sejauh mana ku berlari
ku tetap diriku, oh sayangku
usah dikau ragu
ku takkan pernah melupakan
jasa dan kasihmu
sayangku…

ikin surely miss my dear hanzalah this july.. sebab nanti ikin akn susah berjumpa dgn dia.. ikin hrp dia akn peluk bear yg kin bagi bila dia nak tidur or when  he missed me.. surely miss the way he called me "qhakak".. and, the way he merayu me utk dukung dia, "boleh jadi cair beb..".. lembut jer suara mcm pierre andre..  hehehehhe..

yesterday, I went to the park.. best nyer.. Tgk bunga.. main roller coaster rumah hantu.. ada funfair kat park tu..

another thing, ikin rs baik ikin bgtau kat
sini.. my primary foto yg tajuk "august 06..".. many people think it is my real face.. oklah, mmg my real face but the realitinya tak cantik cam tu.. kan? am i right ? betul kan kawan2 yg dah kenal ikin for a long time?… its quite shamed to say this but it is a fact "the make up and camera make my face nampak cantik".. and, its not from a natural beauty.. ikin dgn rendah dirinya admit that thing.. sure pas ni ramai delete ikin as their friends.. hehhehehe =).. takperla, its up to you all.. tapi, jgnla pulak my best’est’ and my old friends nak delete me pulak.. itu mmg nak tempah ’silat maut’ from ikin la tu..

itu jerla ikin nak reveal.. hrp2 pas ni, tak der org salah sangka lagi.. and, ikin hope my friends will pray that PwC will give a positive feedback kat me upon of my case with previous medical history..as well as dapat 2nd upper degree for my final degree.. Insyaallah, ikin akn cuba sedaya upaya.. "kalau kita nak sesuatu, mcm mana susah pun kita kena usaha kan?".. mcm ikin nak keje dgn PwC, ikin mmg betul2 prepared jawab soalan psychometrics.. so, samala jugak nak dapat 2nd upper degree kan, so, kena la usaha jugak kan? oklah, semoga dilindungi Allah selalu..