ikin’s life

Semalam ialah University of Bradford open day.. Ada undergraduate officer from School of Management asked me to be a volunteer during the open day.. Mcm tour guiding the prospective student around School of Management campus since I am currently student representative for Accounting and Finance course.. So, Ikin pun bersetuju.. but, 2 days before the open day, I feel very ill.. sore throat yg amat perit.. but, since Ikin dah janji, I need to fullfilled my promise..sampai skrg batuk teruk lagi..

Actually, this is not the first time kena dipanggil jadi volunteer during open day for School of Management campus.. Since first year dah kena tolong.. Its quite fun.. sebab dapat tgk mcm mana ragam prospective student.. Most of them like the environment in the School of Management compare to main campus.. sebab School of Management have their own library, and the campus is very peaceful and terletak sebelah Lister Park (the best park in the UK, 2006)..Its an honoured for me to promote the university and willing to share my experience with them.. nasib baik ikin tolong.. sebab ada 2 org jer  termasuk ikinyg jadi student representative during the open day..

Masa mula2 nak pilih university, I choose of Bradford at  the sake of tak tau nak choose mana.. Itu pun as second choice.. My first choice is Cardiff Unversity.. and, my A-Levels results redirect me to University of Bradford..And, I believe ada hikmahnya.. masa mula2 sampai, I was only 18 turning to be 19.. so naive.. and Ikin selalu ingat yg semua org kat dunia ni baik.. In other words,they are very sincere, appreciate the true meaning of friendship.. but I was wrong.. that is not actually in reality.. baru jer sampai kat sini, and I have problems.. but, tu kisah lama.sampai Ikin jadi mcm fobia nakberkawan.. sebab ikin pelik, why must ada org bermuka2..

and, masa 1st year, I survive on my own, on my own feet.. duduk rumah sorang2.. and time tu bulan Ramadhan, ikin buka puasa sorang2.. time tu mmg sedih sgt.. but, ikin kuatkan smgt.. sometimes, aunty fauziah (wife kpd phd student kat sini dulu) and kak wan , kak ina ajak bebuka puasa dgn diorang.. but, ikin kalau boleh tak nak menyusahkan sesiapa.. mmg time tu asyik menangis jer.. but, ikin tak nak tunjuk ikin lemah depan org.. dekat school, ikin rapat dgn lecturer2.. kalau tak faham and setelah penat buat research about that topic, ikin hanya pergi buat appointment and ask for their explaination.. i am alone during that time.. but, ikin still ada kawan2 coursemates.. and nak pergi solat pun sorang2.. sembahyang la kat koridor mana2 yg agak tersembunyi.. and i am a student representative for my course since 1 st yr sampai skrg.. Ari tu, ikin jumpa the dean, and told them about the transportation system yg dah overcapity and not on time.. and the dean said that she will looking forward to solve this problem.. bayangkanla, dah la beratur tgh2 hujan, tup tup bus tu terus pergi sebab dah penuh mcm tin sardin.. geram ikin..

Ikin tak suka sangat group coursework!!! really hate of it!! Mmg malang sungguh nasib ikin sebab every semester masa 2nd year ada manusia dlm group tu yg tak contribute apa2 dlm coursework..rasa nak bagi flying kick jer kat manusia2 tu.. bayangkanla, semuanya selfish..mcm2 reason bagi.. we discuss in a group.. each of us kena assign a topic.. or 2 org buat satu topic.. last2, daripada 5 org, 2 org buat keje.. yg lain tu hampeh.. mmg tak boleh hrp.. bagi alasan tak fahamla.. tak de masa la.. ada personal things la..mmg ikin rasa nak nangis jer.. bayangkanla, ikin dah siap ikin punya part which satu per lima..and kawan baik ikin, a black girl, Ama,satu perlima..tiga per lima tak siap lagi.. 3 per lima tak siap lagi..deadline next week.. i taught that semua take their own responsibility.. and bila suruh buat, diorang copy frm the website and ubah sikit2.. itu dah pliagrism.. terpaksa ikin buat keje sorang2 dgn kawan black ikin.. bayangkan semua keje dah hempap kepala ikin.. sampai demam2 and sakit2 bila buat keje tu.. yang lain tu, hanya nak tolong taip jer.. org tolonglah buat research dlm journal ker, from website ker, frm magazine ker, ni tak.. nak tolong taip jer.. geram ikin… and the person who told me that dia tak faham apa2 turn to get a high marks for the module.. mmg sakit hati sgt!! Ikin tak cemburu sebab itu rezzeki dia , but, ikin yg terbeban dgn group coursework.. then, this year, I decided to join another group.. wish I hope its good..

Ikin seorang yg kalau boleh nak tolong dgn ikhlas, and ikin kalau boleh nak tanggung susah senang ngan org tu..sebab ikin mmg jenis susah nak tunjuk ikin carekan org tu.. biasanya by lisan jer.. mcm belikan ubat ker but, ikin dah mula terbuka mata, ramai yg take advantage of ikin.. sebab masa time exam, baru nak rapat, nak study sama2la.. Ikin bukannya pandai sgt, but, alhamdulilah, ikin jenis’yg cepat faham’ in the lecture.. and sometimes lecturer bagi hint2 sblum exam kat ikin..ikin tahu semua ni Allah yg bagi.. so, ikin kena sharela the knowledge.. but, ikin tak suka kalau org yg hanya nak mengendeng2 masa time dekat2 exam yg kalau sebelum ni mmg tak bertegur lansung ngan ikin and tak tanggung susah payah ngan ikin.. sebab masa ikin susah sorang2 kat university dgn masalah study, hanya Ama, kawan black ikin yg membantu.. and claire, kawan frm Hong Kong (she give me a lots of resources)… I think Ama kawan yg baik, sebab sanggup susah payah ngan ikin, utk buat assgnment Econometrics, which is the tough subject and the group coursework.. skrg ni, ikin susah nak buat kawan baik dgn org.. Ikin tak buruk sangka, but with this bad experience, it teach me a lesson..tak semuanya org akan buat baik kat kita eventhough kita buat baik ngan dia.. and, Ikin akn lebih berhati2 pilih kawan.. susah nak jumpa a very true friend nowadays.. semuanya nak ambil kesempatan.. kesian kat Ikin.. kena face all this things… dlm hati punyalah sakit, but ikin just pretend tak de apa2.. ikin rindu zmn kat mrsm yg kalau demam, ramai yg concern.. masa kat sunway college dulu pun, masa ikin sakit, kawan ikin sampai temankan ikin pergi klinik kat Sunway… kenapala dunia ni tak semuanya org nya baik-baik.. and appreciate the true meaning of good friends…